“We must be willing to get rid of the life we’ve planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.”

� Joseph Campbell

Pentagon unveils smart identification cards with tiny computers

The only thing I wonder about this is, if someone were to find or steal a card off of a soldier, wouldn’t it be very easy for them to then “check out” weapons from a military armory? That doesn’t seem like a good idea….

Apparently there is a group of bikers riding from San Francisco to New York (?), picking up teddy bears along the way with the intention of delivering those teddy bears to kids who lost parents in the September 11th attacks. This is truly one of the best ideas I’ve heard so far.

I revel in self-discovery. I like learning new things about myself. Here’s a few things I found out tonight….

It seems that as I get older, my sense of wonder is increasing from what it was when I was young. This, at first, seems strange and backwards. Growing up, I was a fairly disinterested kid. As a teenager, I was typically apathetic. As such, I didn’t care about the wonder in things and I didn’t pay attention to the beauty around me. Riding home tonight in the back of Denise’s car, I looked out the window and up at the moon, and for the first time, I really SAW and appreciated it. I never really noticed the shadows or dark spots or whatever they are on the moon’s face. Tonight I noticed them and appreciated it and thought how beautiful it looked. I never really cared in the past. I’m starting to appreciate everything more…

I’ve realized that part of the reason I need to work for myself and not have a “real” job is because I get bored too easily. I can’t do the same thing every day for five days a week for four weeks a month for twelve months a year. I can’t go to the same place and see the same people and do the same job every day. I’m currently temping for ETS again, just for a few weeks to help out in a friend’s department, and even though I’ve only done it for two days, I’m sort of bored of it and not really looking forward to going back. It’s become routine. If I had my way, I’d work a new job every few days. I’ve pretty much gotten that by working for myself. One day I might have to drive to a church to do a site survey. The next day I might be working in a bar. One day I might be talking with corporate clients on the phone and the next day I might be out on a job-site setting up equipment. I love the variety of it. I always thought that I was a person who loved stability and routine, and it seems that in some things I do. But I don’t like a normal, daily routine for my entire life.

Self-discovery is wonderful. The more you know about yourself, the more you are in control of yourself, and the more you are able to guide your life to be exactly the way you want it to be.

Ack! MSN.com changed their site layout! Now I can’t find anything! Okay, someone recommend to me the best site to use to get news quickly without having to wade through too much garbage.

I hate being sick and not having a fever. What’s the point? Because, you know you’re sick, but other people will say, “You don’t have a fever? You’re not really sick.” I hate that.

Modern Humorist – Attitude of Gratitude

It’s about time someone came up with one of these. This is what I’ve been needing.

You know what else sucks? I want to send out another mailing to prospective and current clients. It’s a questionnaire I devised a while ago. Then I heard something on this news this morning that apparently clear, see-thru envelopes are selling very well right now because of the Anthrax scare. And it occurs to me, sending out anything right now is obviously a bad idea because it seems very likely that people are going to throw away unsolicited mail without opening it. Great. Thanks, a lot, Taliban. Jerks.

I just noticed that my archives stop at 10/6/01. Anyone know why? Can someone fix that? Please?

Here’s a couple of random thoughts in no particular order….

I was just watching Good Morning America, and Lance Bass from N’Sync was on. For those of you who don’t know, Lance has a new movie coming out this Friday. Lance is one of the executive producers on the movie. The interviewer asked him how he managed to become the executive producer on his very first movie. And my thought was, “Well, he’s got lots and lots of money, and he probably paid for a lot of the movie. Also, he’s Lance Bass. He can have whatever the hell he wants.” What a stupid question.

I think the worst part about all this Anthrax stuff is that on September 11th, as I watched everything happening, I thought how terrible it was, and I figured that MAYBE we’d go to war with someone, but I also thought it was over. I didn’t really think it consciously, but I figured, “Someone managed to do something horrible to us, but now it’s going to stop. They did it, and it’s over.” But they’ve been able to do it again. And who knows how much more they can do? I think that might have been the point of this whole Anthrax thing, because it really hasn’t been all that deadly (well, at least not the skin-type that’s been sent through the mail). I think the point may have been simply to prove that we are vulnerable, and that they can get to us. That bothers me. It bothers me to know that our government and our military cannot protect us all the time. All of our great freedoms, in fact, serve to make us so incredibly vulnerable. It’s unfortunate that some people would take advantage of that and use it to hurt us.